We were blessed

Sunday, March 9, 2008

Numbness.......

Well, I'm sitting her by myself and so many things are going through my head. Ron's wake was Saturday and it was SO hard. Eric is at his buddies just to get his mind of everything and have some other support. Rosie decided to go home and she needed to be by herself and try to "relax" in her apartment. So I'm here, with Emma sleeping and crying all by myself. I don't understand why God decided to take Ron now. I know everything happens for a reason but I just don't understand. We had so many plans. He was suppose to be here to watch Emma grow and to have another grand-baby. I know it was going to happen someday, but he was only 58. 58 that's it! That's not long enough to live. He loved Emma soo much, and it sucks that she will never remember him. All she'll know is what we tell her of him. I feel soo bad for Rosie. I can't imagine losing my husband. I don't know what I would do. She has Eric and me and my family and her two boys but it's different. And then there is his family...... I won't get into that but let's just say I hope I don't have to see them for a LONG time!! His family is all drama. I know I'm just rambling but like I said, I'm here by myself and I just needed to get a few things out.

Thursday, March 6, 2008

Taken Too Soon

Well, yesterday was one of the worst days of my life. My beloved father-in-law passed away unexpectedly. Ron had recently lost a toe to diabetes and was recovering from that. Eric took him to the doctors yesterday to get the foot checked and the doctor said everything looked ok. After the appointment Ron started throwing up and saying his sugar was low. So Eric got him some juice and some glucose tabs but Ron was still throwing up. When they got back to Ron and Rosie's, Ron said he was hungry so Rosie started to make him lunch. Then Rosie said she heard gargling coming from Ron and he was unresponsive. Rosie called 911, he wasn't breathing but had a pulse. They took Ron to Memorial Hospital where they tried to revive him but were unsuccessful. That was one of the worst phone calls I ever got. I think I am numb at this point and I am trying to stay strong for Eric but it's soo hard. They are doing an autopsy today and we will find out the cause of his death. Until then, I don't really know what do to.

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

4 months!

Well, my precious baby girl is four months old already! God how the time flies!! It blows me away to think of how fast she is growing. We went for her four month check on 2/26/08. She is weighing in at 12 pounds 7 ounces and she is 24 inches long. She got three more shots, which she hated and yet again I cried! Her doctor doesn't want her on any food yet. I guess that's okay because she is still sleeping through the night so I can't complain. The minute she stops sleeping through the night she will go on cereal though. He says she is growing out of her little heart murmur and it's almost gone. her doctor says she is just perfect.... which I already knew! haha. Anyways, Emma goes back the end of April which she will get more shots and finally get put on food. I can't get her to like tummy time. She absolutely HATES it. She will take it for a few minutes and then cry to go back onto her back. I keep trying though. I'm afraid she will fall "behind". She hasn't rolled over yet. She almost did yesterday a few times from back to belly. I guess I will just keep trying. She LOVES to talk too now. It's soo funny to listen to her change the pitch in her voice. I just sit and listen to her for hours!

We booked our vacation to Myrtle this year with the family! I can't wait to see Emma on the beach. We are going the second week of the two week trip for everyone else. Eric couldn't get two weeks off in a row. So we will be down the first week of September. Emma will be 10 months old by the time we go so it will be A LOT of fun to see her in the sand.

Anyways, I'm at work right now so I will post some pics later so you can see how big she's getting.